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17th Apr, 2009

My mum is moaning how much i run, its only once a day! Its not like i can do without the exercise. I don't see it as a big deal but she thinks i am becoming obsessed!. Beats sitting in bored, plus it warms me up :)

13th Apr, 2009

I went out last night and only had 2 glassess of red wine, but got home and took a sleeping pill, which you are not supposed to take with alcohol, i feel rather giddy this morning.

Ive been going for regular runs and getting ready for race for life, should be a good day

PLEASE READ AND PRAY

Girls,

Motorbikechick, also known as Stacey, has tried to commit suicide tonight.

I live no where near her but called an ambulance for her and i believe she is now in hospital.

I know hardly anyone checks on here any more, but if you guys do read this, please pray for her safety, wellbeing and health.

We all love you Stacey.


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guys

I don't know why i keep posting. I'm in a complete state. i'm going to purge until i can't purge anymore.

It's like 2 hours until i see my therapist, but i dont feel i can wait that long. I need to see her, to get help right now.

I had the loveliest dream last night when i did sleep. It was basically my life, many years ago. How it could have been had i not developed an eating disorder.

Thats probably the worst dream- a missed dream that could have been reality.

Think thin girls. xxx

Anyone heard from FairyTwig?

I'm worried that she hasn't posted in a week, and her blood pressure was very low... AND she was going to the doctors. Thinking of you hun.

In other news. i am the world's greatest PIG. I started binging at 4am today. Great.

I have therapy in 3 hours. I am probably going to ask to go to in-patient. I've been forced into in-patient before and it was sheer hell. SHEER FUCKING HELL. I need this though, i cannot carry on like i am.

If that doesn't work then fuck it, seriously. Screw recovery alltogether. I shall starve until i am thin because i cannot do this anymore.

It's half six now. I want pasta. So i am going to go and make pasta.

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Tags:

Girls, what do you find works better?

I need to lose about 45lbs... and fast to get me to goal. What do you find works better in terms of quick weight loss, okay-ish health and keeping your metabolism ticking over:

- Fasting for as long as possible, and when i do eat, not going over 200 calories. Little to no exercise
- Staying under 500 calories a day and exercising vigorously each day.

THIS WEIGHT HAS TO BE GONE FROM ME NOW!

XXX

Exciting day ahead!

Yay! My christmas cheque has now cleared, so i'm treating myself to a full head of highlights, a cut and blow dry... plus some retain therapy! Money is soooo nice lol. Don't think i'll manage to fit in a run before it's dark tonight, but i'm looking into buying a wii today so i might get to work out on that, although admittedly that is only going to raise eyes from my housemates who already watch my every bloody move! xxx

30th Dec, 2008

be brutally honest, i know im a state, i just need telling

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Holidays are Tough


I know it's tough getting through the holidays when everyone around you is eating and you are really trying to not without anyone noticing.
Here's something that should help you guys, I found this site yesterday and have looked at it about amillion times already

http://www.freewebs.com/tearslikeblood/index.htm

Hope it helps

Happy Christmahannakwanzika!
Much love and think thin <3

MERRY CHRISTMAS!


Hey girls,


How was everyone's day? Hope santa was good to you all! It's pretty sad i'm posting on an ana forum on christmas day but oh well!

Had a pretty cruddy christmas day, but boxing day is always amazing in my house, mainly because my grandparents come up, and they are my life!

After boxing day, diet shall start. On new years day, fasting and exercise shall commence with harsh brutality lol. 2009 will be my year.

On a plus note, i now no longer have any financial worries after my nan wrote me a cheque for £5000 for christmas! I'm feeling so lucky!

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